i think i need space

...hihinga lang akoh... i need to breathe... papahinga lang akoh.... ang dmeng tumatakbo sa utak koh lately... nde koh na mahabol.... hahanapin koh lang sarili koh?... yeah walang katapusang paghahanap nang sarili... ewan koh... i was gonna post somethin' else kc itz february... eh ano naman kung february? hayz walah lang.... *breathe*....

to kuya EJ: hey don't feel bad... itz not u.... napaisip lang akoh sa bagay bagay.... ewan... but for now... i juz wanna take some rest....

EDIT: tapos nah akoh huminga... langyaness... tinulog koh nah... yan kc naramdaman koh kanina eh... nde akoh makahinga... as in "no air"... kanta 'un ah... asar tlgah kadramahan koh lately... feelin' tired tlgah akoh kaya siguro ganyan kadramahan koh... meron lang akong ipopost kc may hinirit akoh sa taong itoh last time eh... pero palitaw lang akoh aking mahal na bloggers... salamat sa inyong mga concerned, care, pagmamahal at kung ano ano pah pag ako'y may topakz... iibahin koh ang hangin... masaya dapat ang february... oras lang palah kelangan koh para huminga... kuya EJ kc eh... tsk!... kuya EJ hwag mong ihihirit kung ano man 'un... yeah sobrang special mansyon ka nah ditoh... laterz =) --- yan may smiley face nah...

GODBLESS! -di

...lately

lately i'm feelin' kinda lost again... nde koh alam kung san napupunta ang most of my time... i wasted a lot of my time... feeling koh bz akoh pero 'ung mga things na pinaguubusan koh nang oras eh something really not important...and i don't benefit from them at all... dunno really wat i'm sayin... there are days tlgah nah i'm feelin' diz way... there are times den siguro na i'm not bein' true w/ myself.. nah sometimes i'm in denial stage... there are things that i don't say... or i act opposite on how i really feel.... tawa akoh nang tawa pero deep inside naman feeling koh ang lungkot koh... or minsan sadyang drama princess lang tlgah akoh... of course i have God w/ meeh all d' time... syempre nde akoh perpektong tao... i have feelings and emotions den... magaling akoh mag-advice minsan... but kung akoh na nasa situation walah akong ma-apply sa mga pinagsasabi koh... but eventhough i'm feelin' diz way God still been awesome to me... minsan lang tlgah nde koh maintindihan ang sarili koh... alam naman ni God lahat nang nararamdaman koh... pero nde koh lang tlgah maintindihan ang sarili koh minsan... and there are moments dat i feel that people around me are very happy... ba't ang saya saya nilah while meeh nagpapakaemo nang sobrah... but it doesn't reflect tlgah on how i act on d' outside... you'll probably juz see me sometimes tawa lang tawa.... pasmile smile.. or kaya naman neutral... or minsan naman magdradrama for a second tapos tatawa na uletz... nde koh tlgah alam ang pinagsasabi koh... nde naman akoh gutom ngaun... nde naman akoh hilo.... i guess kulang lang kaya akoh sa tulog... alam koh kanina sa class mejo antokz akoh... pero naintindihan koh naman... or baka naman hormones lang toh kc baka parating na naman ang buwanang bisitah koh... pero nde koh alam tlgah.... sometimes lang kc nakakatulong saken ang pagsusulat... or should i say pagtytype... magtytype lang akoh na kahit akoh lang mag-isa ang babasa nitong pinagsasabi koh... gusto koh lang tumalak... ayan.... dehinz koh gano ginagamit ang word na yan... tumalak.... namimiss koh minsan ang old meeh... ano bah ang old meeh... ewan koh... ano nga bah... alam moh bah 'ung feeling nah nagtytype kah at parang teary na ang eyes moh... at konting hirit na lang luluha kah nah pero syempre nde puwede... kelangan pigilan... why... syempre nasa skul... magmumukhang tanga at magiging sisa... walah lang... actually lately tawa lang tawa... as in kahit pag ka-hang out koh ang isang very close friend koh ditoh... walang kmeng ginawa kundi tumawa.... tawanan kahit anong bagay.... as in tatawa lang.... pero feeling koh sa likod nang mga tawang 'un malungkot akoh... ano bah yan... ang drama koh... mangingilid na ang luha koh sa gilid nang mga matah koh... pero syempre... nde puwedeng tumulo... siguro kulang lang akoh sa tulog... pagodz lang tlgah akoh lately... as in i've been tired... i dont' really manage my time so well... feeling koh napakairesponsable kong tao... gusto kong umiyak langyah... kaya minsan akoh ren ang nagre-reap nang mga ginawa koh... sabi nga nilah... wat u reap is wat u sow... yoko na gano humirit... konting hirit pah hahagulgol nah akoh... ang drama devah... yeah i'm full of drama tlgah sometimes... i guess ayonz tlgah akoh.... hayz... i wanted to do my reading for my class and review wat we learned from the lecture earlier so i'll do better on my next exam... but i don't have d' mood to do it yet... i'd rather na magdrama keysa magbasa... nde koh naman puwedeng dramahan ang book koh... puwede ren naman akoh mag-sulat kamay na journal pero sasakit ang kamay koh... mas mabagal ang pagsulat keysa sa pagtakbo nang yutakz koh... well... simple lang naman ang buhay... i juz really make it complicated sometimes... gusto nang luha koh na umiyak... yan.. luha tlgah.... i don't even know wat i'm sayin' anymore... therapy koh lang tlgah tong patype type koh na toh... nakakatulong sa system koh... sa bitukah koh sa balunbalunan koh at sa puso koh... ayan.. drama na yan ha pero may nalalaman pa akong bitukah at balunbalunan... i should start doin' na ren dapat ang aking research paper na due monday... pero syempre... walah akong nagagawa pah... may work pah akoh mamayah... at i can't be late at nde koh na sasabihin ang kadahilanan... i don't have to blame anyone for it... i'm the one to blame... for sure by weekend magkakandarapah na naman akoh sa mga gagawin koh para sa skul... nde koh na atah sometimes naeenjoy ang araw koh... may mga times na parang nagmamadali akoh lagi... nakikipaghabulan sa mga due dates at kung ano ano pang pakikipaghabulan... nde koh na atah naeenjoy ang every moment koh kaya nagkakaganito akoh... nde koh nagagawa ang mga things na dapat kong gawin... or siguro i'm bein' selfish lately... juz thinkin' so much about myself... well... nde koh tlgah alam... ewan... ayan ang pinakamagandang summary sa lahat nang sinabi koh ditoh... ewan... hinga lang akoh... ayan... nakakatulong tlgah ang paghinga... or i guess nagkakaganito akoh kc feeling koh i'm wandering around sa mundong itoh at nde malaman kung ano tlgah ang purpose koh minsan... probably God is leadin' me to the path that i should be taking pero nagbubulag-bulagan akoh... or maybe sometimes i thought i was hearing from Him pero 'un lang palah naririnig koh cuz that was wat i wanted to hear... diz post really don't make sense like how i am feelin' right now.. pero like i always say naman... nde naman tayo laging feeling low.. i won't always be feelin' low... ma-emo lang tlgah akoh minsan.. hobby koh na atah toh... pastime koh... sige puwede na reng sport... hayz drama na nagpapaka-funny na naman akoh... itoh na lang kaya i-turn in koh na research paper koh... i-translate na lang nang teacher koh sa english language.... at ang sources koh ang puso koh... ang korni.. okei nah ang ma-emo eh... pero minsan nadagdagan nang kakornihan sa buhay... well... i guess i have to end diz post... bago ko pa man makuwento ang buong buhay koh at baka makagawa pah akoh nang maagang biography nang buhay koh... i'm readin' d' book right now... tuesday with Morrie... rekomended ni marc at nabasa koh ren sa page ni josha non... i juz started reading it and itz only the second book na nabasa koh for this month... i wanted to read more books pero 'un nga nde koh nga ma-budget nang tama ang time koh eh... at nde koh nga minsan mabasa nang maayos ang class textbook koh eh... makabasa pa kaya akoh nang maraming books... eniweiz... gusto koh lang i-quote 'ung part na nabasa koh kanina... i luv da message... kahit walah kayong naintindihan sa pinagsasabi koh ditoh.. and ang chance naman na may magbabasa nitoh eh close to no one except for me eh kahit itong mensahe lang na itoh ang makuha nyo eh ok nah... so here it is...

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things that they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to lovings others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote your self to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning" -Mitch Albom

EDIT: salamat po sa lahat nang dumaan, nagbasa, nag-advice. at nakiramay sa kaemohan koh kahapon... i feel better now.. salamat po nang sobrah.. na-appreciate koh 'un sobrah... na-touched akoh sa mga sinabi nyoh... kahit nga lang 'ung point na binasa nyoh yang kadramahan eh sobrang na-appreciate koh nah... again salamat... nde akoh makareply nang ayos sa mga koments nyoh kc right now takas lang akoh sa skul.... kung nde man akoh maka-reply nah eh sobrang pasasalamat na lang.... mejo palitaw den muna akoh ditoh... like sabi nang ibah dapat unahin koh muna ang dapat kong gawin... prioritize para nde akoh gano ma-stress at nde akoh ganong ma-feel emo na ganito... i'll be kinda bz again cuz meron na naman comin' up exam in less than 2 weeks, also have some research paper due, then of course may work den.... but again na-appreciate koh ang mga sinabi nyoh... salamat from d' bottom of my heart... =)

GODBLESS! -di

nahilo at feeling dizzy

oh devah nde lang hilo.. feeling dizzy pah.. san kah pah... sendali... etoh trip koh ngaun... konsepto galing kay kuya supergulaman... dahil gutom nah akoh at hilo na ren akoh eh eto ang trippings koh... bahala na kayo kung pano nyo babasahin.

-di GODBLESS! .out peace .hehe .eh nde akoh kahit.eh nitoh magbasa magtitiyagang naman walah malamang and koh pinaggagawa sa akoh napagod .ZLoL .NeD eGauGNaL GNaBi aS NaGNaLeK ?WoNK aNNaW SYuG uoY .eHeH .HoK HoTeRKiS GNaBi HoYNi aS eRaHS HoK eDeWuP !NuF Si ZiD .eHeH .NiRaTKiLaB He DRoW GNa iTaP GNuK oNaaP .TWiST NaNG NaTeN KaYaH LaGYaN .tlgah lang ko trip .pramis akoh tlgah hilo .oh naman nga tao ang .natutuliro koh yutakz pati hayz .ganitoh nang mag-type kaya kakapagod .nila buhay sa matino magawang walang taong mga ang etoh .koh sarili hihiluhin lang ko lalo .lang ko trip

....hayz...

...dunno really wat i'm feeling right now... nawalah akoh cuz i was bz studyin' for my exam... katatapos lang nang exam koh.. how was it?... hayz... ok lang... siguro alam koh 'ung fifty percent don... pero 'ung other fifty percent eh nakikipagsapalaran pah... hayz... ok sana kung multiple choice lahat eh... mini mini mini mo lang... kaso nde eh... meron pang mga short answers... fill in the blanks... and blah blah blah... tapos 'ung true or false pah.. asar akoh sa true or false na yan eh... syempre kung nde true eh di false... eh pano kung kala moh false tapos true palah... hayz... sori nde na akoh nakahirit sa inyoh dyan sa kwentong tsinelas koh... salamat po sa mga nagbasa, naaliw, nagkoment at kung ano ano pah... hayz tlgah... i think pagod na ren yutakz koh... lately ren atah i'm bein' irresponsible.. i called in twice sa work so i can study... worth it bah 'un?... at tsaka tama bang gawin 'un.... selfish atah akoh so para lang makapag-aral... nde koh kc minsan nabubudget nang tama ang oras koh eh... sabi nga ni kuya ronz last time eh i gotta set my priorities daw... so 'un nga ang triny kong gawin... natapos akoh nang mga 15 minutes early sa exam... i could have stay there hanggang matapos ang time... but it won't make a difference kahit titigan koh ang paper maghapon at nde alam nang yutakz koh... hayz tlgah... pero namiss koh tong blogsphere... sabi koh pagbalik koh hihirit akoh nang bonggang bongga... pero 'la... pagod na yutakz koh... hayz... one week na nawala akoh ditoh feels like forever... hay buhay parang life... hayz tlgah... namiss koh kayoh... kahit feeling ewan akoh eh hwag nyo akong intindihin... topz lang tlgah akoh minsan... topz as in topakz... hayz... so yeah.. u guyz have a nice day!..

EDIT: tuliro kanina yutakz koh nong pinost koh yan... eniweiz da real reason na nawalah akoh eh i had a deal w/ God... i was so worried kc sa comin' exam koh kaya sabi koh God help me w/ the exam....tapos hinirit koh pa sa Kanyah nde po akoh magbloblogsphere until my exam is over... so 'unz.. right after i said dat eh namoved exam koh from thursday to monday... eh di ang saya i was like thank God... so meron akong more time para makapag-aral... kaya pinanindigan koh sinabi koh sa Kanyah.... but He didn't ask me naman to make sacrifices like dat... siguro natuwa at naaliw lang si God saken... at tinest kung kakayanin bah nang powers koh ang hinirit koh... pero syempre... wat do u guyz think?...was that easy for me?... syempre a big NO NO... hirap kayah pero kinayah koh... 'ung tipong kahit san akoh pumunta eh may computer... i go online pa ren pero parah sa class and to check some emails... kaso alam moh 'ung feeling na gusto kong buksan ang blogspot koh.... and kahit pagpasok koh sa room koh eh naghihintay na ang laptop koh kc routine koh madalas pag-uwi nang haus eh go to my room and turn on d' computer at syempre san pah bah ang fave kong puntahan before i do the things na dapat kong gawin... wehe... sa sobrang nde koh ma-take ang temptation minsan eh shinutdown koh nang tuluyan at tinanggal ang saksak at tinago koh ang buong laptop... para nde koh makitah... hehe..... langyaness a week... minsan atah ditoh akoh humuhugot nang hininga koh.... weh!...ang korni nah!... hehe.. na-miss koh toh and ang mga special na tao behind d' blogs... at 'un totoo 'un... naks... but i'm still kinda scared sa result nang exam koh... pero sabi koh nga... i did my best... but sometimes my best wasn't good enough... hehe.... langyaness kanta 'un.... bahala nah... i don't wanna worry so much about it... 'un lang po... =)

another EDIT: result of 'd exam.. ok lang.. i could have done better... oh well...

TO ALL: .. salamat sa inyong pag-motivate saken... sa pagpapatawa... pagka-miss saken... pagsuporta... salamat sa lahat lahat... i appreciate it...

p.s. sensya nah mareng amor nde akoh umabot don sa deadline moh para sa pagpost about sa cancer... sensya nah.. kababalik koh lang sa mundong itoh... pero i prayed for them... 'un na lang contribution koh... =)

Godbless you all... -di

Flip Flops

...yeah sosi akoh... instead of tsinelas eh flip flops akoh... etoh eh tagged from kuya CM... since nadeadma koh na 'ung isang tag nyah last year eh papatulan koh toh... si Marconess kc... iniwan iwan kc ang tsinelas sa page ni kuya CM eh... tuloy... nahawa den kme... lolz... eniweiz... ang kwentong flip flops...
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Isang araw i was feeling really down kaya naisipan kong maglakad papunta sa park malapit sa amin. Para ma-relax at makapag-isip isip. Maganda 'ung park kc by the water syah. Pumunta akoh sa part na mabuhangin at nagtanggal nang flip flops. Naglakad lakad lang, nagmuni-muni at nagmasid masid. Nag-breathe para gumaan ang pakiramdam. Masaya kc walah ganong tao nung araw nah 'un. Tahimik. Napaka-peaceful. Tapos nag-pray lang at kinausap si God. Then after few hours... nang tapos na akong mag-emo eh i was about to go home na but i couldn't find my flipflops. Iniwan koh lang sa isang tabi. Nawala. May nag-trip atah at kinuha. Hinanap koh nang hihanap sa area na pinag-iwanan koh pero walah tlagah. But sa corner nang eye koh may parah akong nakita na pair nang flip flop but parang nde saken. I turned around to check it out. Hinde nga saken pero parang walang may-ari. So nilapitan koh at naisipan kunin koh na lang kc una nde koh makita ang aking flipflops, pangalawa parang wala namang may-ari at pangatlo baka nagkapalit kme nang may-ari nang flip flops na toh eh di patas na kme. So i took it and when i was about to wear eh napansin koh na merong nakadikit na maliit na note sa ilalim nang isang flip flop saying this:


"I don't know where you are

or who you are,

but I know you exist

I feel you in my heart and I see you in my mind."



I thought that was very interesting. Eniweiz since i needed the flip flops, i wore it before anyone would claim it and before i walk home barefooted. Dahil naaliw akoh eh kinuha koh na ren ang notes. When I came home napansin koh na may email attached at the bottom of the note. Since walah akong matinong magawa sa araw nah yon eh napagtripan kong emailan syah. But only a few minutes after i sent the email eh i got a reply agad. I found out that the owner of the note was a guy and he sounded so sweet and nice sa email. After that day eh napansin koh na lang na madalas na kme nag-uusap... we kept exchanging emails hanggang sa mag-chat na kme at mag-usap sa fone and the next thing i know i think i was falling inlove with him. But we decided na nde magpakita muna sa isa't isa. Cuz true love naman eh nde based sa outside appearance. Pagkalipas nang maraming buwan nang pag-uusap, kwentuhan, tawanan at emohan. We decided to meet up. But pano koh malalaman na sya iyon eh wala nga akong idea wat he looks like. Sabi nyah we would meet up at diz place na sinabi nya at by the church. Malalaman kong sya daw yon cuz may hawak syang huggable bear, flowers for me and a new pair of flip flops daw kapalit nang nawala koh nung nakalipas na maraming buwan. So the day came and i went there sa place where we suppose to meet. May nasalubong akoh na isang good looking young guy. Akala koh sya na 'un so ang ganda nang ngiti koh kaso nilagpasan nyah akoh at napansin koh walah sya dala na sinabi nyang dadahin nyah. Pagkalagpas nyah. I saw this one guy sitting down by the church at may ngiti sa labi nyah. Nagulat akoh. He looked like probably twice my age at mukha na syang lolo koh tapos nakita koh he was holding a bear, flower and a pair of flip flops. Gusto kong tumakbo papalayo. Pero sabi koh itoh ang taong nakausap koh nang maraming buwan at nagbigay saken nang saya nung panahon na malungkot akoh. So he deserve a respect and a better treatment from me. So lumapit akoh at ngumiti. Nag-hello at nagpakilala na akoh 'ung taong ime-meet nyah. Sabi nang matanda saken "ewan koh kung ano ang ibig-sabihin nitoh pero nilapitan lang akoh nung guy na nasalubong moh kani-kanina lang at sabi nyah kung may lalapit daw saken na babae eh ibigay koh toh sa kanyah at sabhin na i-meet moh daw syah dyan sa may starbucks sa may kanto".....

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... akala koh ren luv story koh eh...wehe... i'm not gonna take all d' credit for d' story... mejo nakuha koh ang idea sa isang book na binasa koh... eniweiz... so yeah.. ang kwentong flip flops...

...para sa mga nabitin daw: ... well actually 'ung ginawa nung guy was juz kind of test sa girl to see kung magugustuhan tlgah sya nde lang dahil sa looks nyah but kung ano syah deep inside...so i guess she passed the test and they lived happily ever after?... wehe... 'un 'ung ending... =)

p.s. ipasa koh raw eh... i'll pass diz tag sa mga magagaling na writer nang blogpshere nah sinah...
JOSHA of Mundong Parisukat, KUYA RONZ of A Slice of Turon, RON on the coffin rock, DYLAN of Bottomless Coffee, and BONG of stupidly perfect. it'z up to u guyz if u feel like doin' it or not... [note: Kuya CM said: .... kelangan maghanap ka ng isang pektyur ng tsinelas at gawan ng kwento.. need more info juz click his link =)]

GODBLESS! -di

Faithfully

Lyrics by Eric and Leslie Ludy

Tonight I saw a shooting star,
Made me wonder where you are.
For years I have been dreaming of you,
And I wonder if you're thinking of me, too.

In this world of cheap romance
And love that only fades after the dance,
They say that I'm a fool to wait for something more.
How can I really love someone i've never seen before?

But I have longed for true love every day that I have lived,
And I know that real love is all about learning how to give.
So I pray that God will bring you to me,
And I pray you'll find me waiting faithfully.

CHORUS
Faithfully, I am yours
From now until forever.
Faithfully, I will write,
Write you a love song with my life.
Cause this kind of love's worth waiting for
No matter how long it takes
I am yours
Faithfully.

Tonight I saw two lovers kiss,
Reminded me of my own loneliness.
They say that I'm a fool to keep on praying for you.
How can I give up pleasure for a dream that won't come true?

But I will keep believing that God still has a plan.
And though I cannot see you now,I know that He can,
And someday I will give you all of me
Until I find you, i'll be waiting faithfully.

p.s. Faithfully is my backgroud song right now =)

Godbless! -di

tired and sleepy

ZzzzzZZzzzzzZZzzzz.....

Godbless! -di

God is so Awesome! He Rocks!

... yeah that was my line juz a moment ago... i lost my i.d. last couple of days... i didn't know where i lost it... then when i was on my way here on the computer lab... a lady said "hey".. i didn't hear her the first time but the other student told me "oh hey i think she's trying to call you"... so i looked back:

lady: were u able to pick up your i.d.?
me: my i.d.? oh wow.. u have my i.d.?
lady: yeah we had it for days now... but i wasn't sure if you got it already... come with me and let's go look for it...
*followed her..*
*lady lookin' for the i.d. in the drawer*
lady: oh here it is!...
me: oh wow... awesome! oh...thank you so much...
*i didn't say much cuz i was feelin' tired...*
lady: ur welcome....
me: u have a nice day! thank you...
...right after dat that was when i said to myself... actually to God... "thank you po God... ur so Awesome! u Rock!"... yeah... it was awesome cuz i wasn't expecting that i would still find my school i.d. ... and awesome cuz i don't have to pay anymore to get a new one ...

...i had a paper that was due monday it was kinda an extra credit... a paper worth 5 points.. it doesn't sound much but it'll defnitely make a difference on my grade... so yeah... i wasn't able to do it cuz i didn't have an access with the article at home that i should be writing my response to... i realized that you can only have an access to it at school.. so yeah i wasn't able to do it... but i tried to spend so many hours last Sunday tryin' to find the article on google cuz i kinda read few pages of it already and juz tryin' to find d' rest... but i didn't find it... i was upset... i was gonna go to school really early the next day to do it... but i didn't see any possibility that i could finish reading the rest of the article for an hour plus write a paper about it... so yeah... but Thank God... monday at school.. before the class began...our teacher was like "oh sorry you guyz i didn't remind you about the paper that is due today last friday and i didn't tell you that you couldn't access the article at home...cuz of that some of you can still turn the paper in tomorrow"... i was like "awesome!"... oh my teacher is really nice... i spent all my sunday worrying about a 5 point worth paper for nothin'.. lesson for me there was don't worry so much and get enough sleep! ...

hayz been really tired lately... as in exhausted... i dunno ba't nag-eenglish akoh ditoh.. nosebleed na nga...but really been tired... but God still been awesome and really nice to me... sobrah.. 'la lang... diz is my way na malabas ang mga thoughts koh... cuz been really tired.. i dunno why i'm so tired... i guess i'm lack of sleep... exhausted... dehydrated or ano ano pang ed... hayz... inluv?... nyaikz.... ewan... wehe... i trust God na lang w/ the pen for writing the script of my love story... ayonz...

i have work today.... i'm juz hangin' out a little bit here in our computer lab... i should be leavin' school in less than 3 hours... hay! it reminded me i have a bill due today... sometimes i felt like a lot of hours that i spent were put on waste... sinasayang koh lang.. 'la lang... hayz... nakakatulong tlgah saken tong pagsusulat daw... hayz... blangko na yutakz koh.. i guess daz all i wanted to say...

GOD is really Awesome!... salamat po God for da day.. sorry sa mga katopakanz koh... pasensya nah po... Kayo na po bahala sa lahat lahat... sa family koh po syempre at sa mga mahal koh po sa buhay... and Kayo na po bahala sa mga taong pinagprapray koh po... Be w/ all of us po... i know You will never leave us nor forsake us...

Have a nice day you guyz... GODBLESS! -di

"Crush"

by: David Archuleta

I hung up the phone tonight

Something happened for the first time deep inside

It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility

That you would ever feel the same way about me

It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?

All I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized

And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone

All that we can be, where this thing can go?

Am I crazy or falling in love?

Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?

Are you holding back like the way I do?

'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away

But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy...

p.s. i luv d' song... nd yeah i'm an archie... a david archuleta fan ..so yeah.. ... GODBLESS! -di

You're blessed when...

You're blessed when you are out of options, and all you can do is lean on God. Because when you realize your need for God, it is only then that you tap into His immeasurable greatness and goodness.

You're blessed when you've been stripped of that which is most precious to you. Because only then can you be tenderly embraced by the One most precious to you.

(Matthew 5:3-5, paraphrase)

GODBLESS! -di

i had a date with myself...

…after skul… yeah balik skul daw akoh… yeah ang sayah… skul and work akoh ngaun… kaya nga right now… at diz moment… bangag akoh… as in… bangagness tlgah…

kanina somebody ask me…
Somebody: “what’s your name?
”… akoh… napa-isip….
Meeh: “what’s my name?”
… hahaha… bangag akoh… langyah… kc last nite…. Na-puyat akoh… I only had two hours of sleep I believe… and the night before that I think I only had 2 to 3 hours of sleep… so yeah… meaning… 2 days na akong puyat… tsk!... that’s why ngaun… sobrang bangag akoh…

may pina-fill up pah nah application ang nanay koh saken… kani-kanina lang… nde akoh makapag-isip nang matino… pero kahit bangag akoh… nagmumulti-taskin' pa ren akoh.. helpin’ out my nanay and nakipag-exchange wordness pa ren akoh kina marconess at amorness…

eniweiz… ano bah kinukuwento koh…so ‘unz… kanina… ka-date koh sarili koh… right after skul my friend had to go to work… eh akoh nagpa-off akoh today… so since bihira koh lang makasama sarili koh eh naisipan kon i-date muna... first stop koh...nag-dropped by sa workplace koh cuz I had to give somethin’ to one of my co-worker… tapos naisipan kong mag-shopped for some school supplies...

tapos pumunta akoh sa church… yon… ‘un ang pinaka-highlight nang date koh…. Nakipag-chikahan akoh kay God… hayz… tuloh na naman ang uhog at luha koh…. Na-miss koh ‘un… sobrah…. Tagal den kmeng nag-usap… nailabas koh ang mga emo koh sa kalalim-laliman nang bitukah koh… hayz… nakakatuwa kausapin Syah… ang sarap nang pakiramdam koh pagkatapos… parang nabunutan muli akoh nang tinik sa puso koh…. Gumaan ang pakiramdam koh…

after dat… mejo nagpa-byuti saglit… brow arch lang naman ang ginawa koh…na muntik koh nang matulugan…. kc saya nakahiga kah habang inaayusan… inaatake na akoh nang antokz non kc eh… haircut ren sanah.. actually trim lang sanah.. kaso nde available ang hair stylist koh… naks… may hair stylist tlgah akong sarili… wehe… jokeness lang... pero nde nga available 'ung gusto koh... so ‘un… after dat… I was gonna go shoppin’ sanah… pero nalimutan koh na kc bangag na akoh at kc nakitah koh ang fave bookstore koh…

pumunta akoh… tumambay at tumingin tingin nang mga books… syempre… akoh fah… nde puwedeng lumabas na walang bitbit nah books… I bought total of three books… on top of my textbook na binili koh earlier sa school… dme koh tlgang babasahin… isa sa mga books na ‘un eh ang nirekomenda ni marconess kow at joshaness na Tuesday w/ Morrie… kinda excited na mabasa.. pero meron pa akong currently na binabasa na binili koh ren… I also bought a tall soy chai sa starbucks… ‘la caffeine kc I had double shot na earlier… gusto koh sanah ice… pero nde koh nasabi… kaya hot chai naibigay saken…

then dinaanan koh ‘ung ex-manager namen na nalipat sa ibang store… nagdropped by lang para mag-hi… then I was gonna go sana sa inaanak koh kaso feelin’ tired and bangag nah so decided nde nah…

‘un nah atah last stop koh… then I went home… kaso pagdating sa haus… ramdam koh na ang pagod koh… at right now… while typing diz at bangagness na tlgah akoh…. May skul pa uletz bukas early morning…. hayz!... but itz been an awesome day naman… I luv my class… and I had fun dating myself naman… kc baka matagalan uletz bago mangyari ‘un…

Kahit ‘la akong kanina ka-hhwwpssp eh ok lang kc tinatapos pa daw ni God ang script nang perfect love story koh…naks...

Post koh bah toh? Parang ayaw koh… pero bakit bah... itz my life... drink sprite... magpakatotoo.. lolz.. pero I had an awesome day today… dehinz lang sound so awesome ang pagkakuwento koh kc nga bangag na tlgah akoh… as in… sobrah… alam oh ‘ung feeling na habang nagtytype kah eh pumipikit-pikit na matah moh… tapos nde nag-fu-function well 'ung yutakz moh... tapos ang tagal mag-send nang message sa yutakz moh... ‘un ang pakiramdam koh ngaun….

Babush na muna akoh mahiwagang mundo nang blogsperyo… next time na hirit koh ditoh…

p.s. nanay koh is baby sittin’ my 9-month old niece right now… tinuturuan nyah maglakad sabi nyah… stip stip… lolz.. wehe… pero luvz koh yang nanay ko na yan.. kahit minsan sobrang kuletz… kanina… ang kuletz… nakukulitanz akoh kc bangag nga akoh… tapos parang parrot… inuulit ulit lang ang sinasabi koh at sinasabi nang ate koh… hayz…

etoh pah:
nanay ko: pinuputol palah nang anak moh *talkin’ to my ate* ang mga crayons nyah…
ate koh: sabihin moh nga diane hwag putulin ang mga krayons…
akoh: oh yeah hwag moh nga putulin ang mga krayons…
---langyah natawa akoh… umulit ulit lang ang sinabi namen… mga parrot… bangag na tlgah akoh… pramis… hayz!...

Etoh pah: nag-uusap nanay at ateh koh…
Ate koh: alam moh naman si diane… maarte…
Basta may pinag-uusapan silah.. hayz!

GODBLESS! –dhianess

...Life is Short

p.s. galing kc akoh sa page ni big bro saulkrisna... napaisip akoh sa post nyah... naka-link syah at feel free makibasa sa page nyah... hayz... pi-nost koh lang ang reply koment koh sa kanyah cuz dat says it all kung anong naramdaman koh nung moment na mabasa koh 'un...

...life is so short nga... napaisip akoh don sa part na ano nga bah ang ginagawa koh sa buhay koh? pano koh pinapahalagaan ang buhay koh ngaun?... pano koh iniispend toh?.. san koh dinadala ang every segundo na meron pa akoh?... i think i wasted a lot of time and still in d' process of wastin' it i guess.. pero life is a gift nga... pasalamat tayoh... and any second could be our last... dumating na ren akoh sa point nang buhay koh na naisip koh na mawawalah akoh... it was really sad... at akoh ren ang umiyak sa sarili kong pinag-iisip...pag nawalah tayoh eh makikita moh mga mahal moh.. iiyak... pero after dat... life goes on pa ren sa kanilah.. pero for sure mamimiss tayoh... gotta spend time wisely tlgah... pero tao lang... nde naman maiwasan maging emo minsan... at malungkot... alam naman ni God lahat 'un eh... na-hospital na ren akoh minsan... na-ICU... biglaan... akalah moh simple lang...pero malala palah... i was there for almost a week... na-appreciate koh ang family at mga taong nakaalala na na-hospital akoh... sa mga times like dat... don moh makikita kung sino tlgah ang nagmamahal sau... kakatampo sa ibah... they weren't there whey i needed them most... datz why i appreciate my family so much... and i luv them tlgah... silah ang mga taong laging nandyan parah saken... no matter wat... ang mga tao sa paligid koh at kahit ibang kaibigan koh eh come and go... pero family koh... mula nang pinanganak akoh at for sure hanggang sa huling hininga koh depende kung sino mauna eh nandyan pa ren silah... at family mahal tayo despite mga katopakanz naten... nde naten kelangan magpaka-plastic like ginagawa naten sometimes sa ibang tao.... nde naman maiwasan maging ganon minsan... kaya nga totoo... sa ibang tao... front lang naten pinapakitah naten... dehinz nilah alam what we really feel deep inside... si God alam nyah lahat... as in lahat lahat... si God den ang isang pinasasalamatan koh sa buhay koh... nde Nyah akoh nilelet-go kaya patuloy pa ren akoh... and He luvs me unconditionally actually mahal Nyah tayong lahat no matter wat kahit ang ibah eh pinu-push Syah palayo... akala naten minsan layo layo ni God pero actually malapit lang Syah abot kamay lang... there are times i wanted to give up... parang nde koh na kayah... but He's there... keep reminding me how beautiful life is and how i am blessed dat i'm still alive and that i should be thankful about it and i should use my time wisely while i'm still here and be a blessing to somebody and maybe be an inspiration to others so that they would know Him and would also have a relationship w/ Him...

...you are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes

James 4:14

GODBLESS! -di

The Tree

what's up w/ d' tree? anong meron sa puno?... walah lang... kc tatlong page na ang napuntahan koh na may punong picture sa post nilah... naaliw at natuwa lang akoh i guess... at mejo napaisip... ano kaya ang meron sa puno?... may significance kayah yan saken sa year na itoh?.... hmmnnzz....





etoh sa page ni marcopaolo...
marco said: "Yong "THE TREE"... wala lang... napagtripan ko lang... lolz"





kosa said: "Bakit litrato ng isang puno yung nakalagay? wala lang..nagustuhan ko lang ilagay.. walang kinalaman sa topic pero sayang nman.. Kuha yan ng pamangkin ko, isang puno sa likod bahay."




...naligaw lang akoh sa page nyah...
galleria neri said: "eto po ang punong wala masyadong dahon. Kung iisipin napakalungkot naman nito para umpisahan ang bagong taon pero ating tignan ang positibong aral nito - ang pagsisimulang muli ng pagtubo ng mga bagong dahon."


...pare-parehong puno... pero iba't ibang reason why nila nilagay itoh sa page nilah.... 'la lang... napag-tripan koh lang i-post ang mga trees nilah... btw... 'ung punong nakitah koh sa google images... d' first one... it reminded me of d' movie "the sassy girl"...luv dat movie... hinirit koh lang... hayz...

..so yeah ang puno... bow!

p.s. hayz ulez... ganyan ang mga taong bangag... pati puno pinag-tripan i-post... i had 4 shots of coffee today... one ice coffee... and an instant coffee bago akoh matulog... yan ang result... nde pa akoh natutulog at umaga nah... i guess kahit nde pa antokz need to sleep now... laterz...

GODBLESS! -di

EDIT:
oh yeah magandang example palah nyang the tree na yan eh ang page ni good-lookin' ron... yeah 'un 'ung pinaka-trademark nang page nyah... ang puno... and i like wat he said in his comment on my post about the tree... oh yeah btw... try to visit his page... you'll luv his post cuz he's such a good writer!...oo graveh... i'm a fan of his writing... =)


RoneiLukeRN said: "i love photos of trees :) i am not sure if you noticed karamihan ng banner ko may puno :) hehe! i guess it's the concept behind the idea of the tree...reminds me of growth, nourishment, and maturity... "

not in the mood...

...i started my new year right naman... everythin' went fine... i was able to spent it w/ my family and luv ones... but today... i dunno.... nde maganda gising koh... kaninang umaga pah.... from d' mornin' i woke up... walah na akoh sa mood.... kanina... i woke up kinda late... cuz i slept late na ren cuz of d' new year celebration... kaninang umaga sabi koh ba't 'la akoh sa mood?... ang choices lang don... a. kulang akoh sa tulog b. gutom akoh c. magkakaroon akoh... well like i said... i slept late so yeah kulang akoh sa tulog... and yeah i was hungry too cuz earlier i didn't eat anythin' when i left home cuz i woke up late nah and i had to hurry so i won't be late to work... but magkakaroon? dat i dunno yet... but yeah kung magkakaroon akoh tlagang mainit uloh koh.... when i got to work.. i asked my co-worker to make meeh coffee to start my day... i paid for it already n everythin'... tapos nung kukunin koh nah eh she haven't make it cuz bz daw syah... eh kc naman inuna pa nyah 'ung customer eh nauna akoh kaya don... hay! ayon... nag-init uloh koh eh mag-sstart na 'ung shift koh... so yeah dat moment... gutom akoh... and i also needed coffee so bad.. i had a muffin but dat wasn't enough... cuz i had no coffee... i wasn't able to drink coffee until two hours after i started my shift... syempre sa harap nang customers i gotta smile and pretend i was fine... but i wasn't fine... even 'ung mga co-workers koh natatarayan koh nah... i wasn't even smilin' a lot like my usual.. not so friendly as well.... pero kinda bz kanina so i guess dehinz nilah ganoh pansin... naiinis akoh sa mood koh.... actually my mood today were all mixed: i was feelin' grumpy, mean, unfriendly, upset, depressed, down, sad.... ewan koh... around afternoon that was when i became depressed... i was feelin' down, and feelin' upset for no reason... durin' my lunch... i dunno i juz felt sad... i ate a sandwich...after dat i was feelin' d' same thing... feelin' so low.. i wanted to read d' book dat i brought to work... but didn't feel like readin' it... oh yeah i didn't have my cellphone w/ meeh too cuz i left it at home'... then i wanted to write somethin'... pero i didn't have a pen w/ meeh dat moment in d' breakroom... i was lazy to get up and get a pen... so ayon... nagpa-ka-upset lalo... then back to work... we were really bz... ayon... mejo naputol ang pagiging emo koh... pansamantalang nalimutan koh ang sarili koh cuz there was so much things to do... and yeah cuz we were bz... then uwian time.... i was on d' way home... i was feelin' sad... and depressed... and down.... na ewan.... when i got home... dahil nde koh maintindihan ang nararamdaman koh... kumain akoh... i guess i was hungry too... but still my mood was still on d' down low... feeling koh maiiyak akoh nah nde koh maintindihan... then i went to my room.. my ate was there and using the laptop... tapos nakita koh pa mejo magulo ang room koh cuz ginulo na naman nang pamangkin koh... nag-init na naman ulo koh... she was talkin' to meeh but i don't feel like answerin' back... i either ignored some of her questions or i juz answered it w/ a one word phrase... dat wasn't a usual meeh.... ewan koh bah... then my niece came up to meeh and also was askin' meeh a question.. i juz ignored her... tapos... nilakasan nyah boses nyah... sabi koh nabibingi akoh... then after that she was like...oh ok you dunno.... since walah akong sinasabi syah na sumagot nang tanong nyah.. then i went to watched dvd w/ her... but still wasn't in the mood... but it was sweet of her tumabi sya saken at binigyan akoh nang blanket nyah.. but i was only there for few minutes... bumalik akoh ditoh sa room koh at nag-changed...tapos humiga sa bed at nag-emote at nag-pretend to be sleepin'... then my ate asked me kung matutulog na akoh... nde akoh sumagot... maya maya... she left nah and went to her room w/ my other niece... finally nagamit koh ang computer... i have my dim light... my music is on... nasa bed at nakakumot... i guess still not in d' mood... i guess kelangan koh lang itulog... i hate diz feeling'... but... kahit 'la akoh sa mood... mag-pray bago matulog... so yeah...i'll get ready to sleep nah... GODBLESS! -di

God Has a Plan for the Life of Every Person

The one who formed the brilliant stars and made the vast oceans created you out of His great love. His genuine devotion to His children lights the way as we travel through life.

God's love is sincere and constant and knows no boundaries or limits. Just as each star has its place and course, God has given to each of us a divine purpose, a plan for our lives.

As your guide, He will take you out of confusion and will help you to reach your destiny.

You are worthwhile, significant, and valuable person. Since the beginning of time, there has never been anyone else exactly like you and there never will be again. You're capable of great things and deserve the best.

There is no one who can duplicate of all the attributes that only you can possess. You are precious and are esteemed the most valuable treasure on earth. Generously equipped in both mind and body, you can do miraculous things with your life.

You have extraordinary capabilities and the world can benefit from your many talents. Utilize your full potential to make it better place for yourself and for generations to follow. Everyone has many gifts to offer, find what you are best at and give that gift to others. A talent concealed or not expressed soon dries up and withers away, so extent it out to the world. It is like pebble that is dropped into the ocean, and the countless rings that are formed from its beginning are constantly getting bigger and bigger.

Have a healthy self-respect. God made you very special, so hold a high opinion of your own worth. Exude an air of gentle confidence. People will perceive you as you perceive yourself.

Gentleness is not an absence of power, but a sign of great inner strenght. How you act will determine how people will react to you.

Self-confidence differs from conceit or arrogance. It is calm, serenely poised attitude that dares to achieve the very best.

Do not be afraid. Every noble acquisition has its risk. But you can adjust to any challenge or hardship if you have a desire to overcome. Shake off any mistakes of the day. God gives you new opportunities each morning.

This life is your constant opportunity. Create your own special dreams. Never be convinced that your goals are too high. Let others dig a cave; you can build a castle!

As a child of God, you too, deserve the best; nothing is too good for you. Be what you dream to be and make your life everything you always hoped for.

You have complete control over choices you make, so use wisdom. Choose respect, not ruthlessness. Make sure your choices will benefit not only yourself, but others as well, and your success will be sweet.

Do not listen to those who try to demean you. There will be some who will be jealous of you and who will try to distract you from your dreams.

Be strong. Never allow another person to rob you doing your best to achieve your goals. Believe in yourself; I believe in you.

Just as each star is distinct and one of a kind, so are you. This life is your occasion to shine. So, give out your own radiant light, encouraging and inspiring others, while sharing joy and promise.

This is the dawning of a new day and "A New You."

by: Catherine Galasso-Vigorito
from the book: A New You: Words to Soothe the Mind, Body and Spirit.

Have a Blessed New Year!!!

GODBLESS! -di

"Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. But today is a gift, and that is why it's called the present"

p.s. i read that column from a book... i juz wanted to start my new year in a positive way so i posted it. and i also watched kung fu panda earlier at home... i heard dat quote... luv it... so i thought i'd post it as well... =)