yeah i give up

yeah i give up
by: dee

sometimes i'm so inlove
the next day i'm heartbroken
i'm so crazy 'bout you
but you don't feel the same way

i always wanted to talk to you
but you seemed not to care
i thought you love me too
i guess i am just insane

never a day passed
that i didn't think about you
you're always in my mind
even when i go to the bathroom

yep crazy as it sounds
all i say here is true
but i think this is too much
i need to freakin' let you go

i wanna say that i hate you
at the same time i love you
but the last thing i wanna do
is to make you sad and hurt you

but i guess that's life huh
somehow you have to give up
not cuz you stop loving someone
it cuz you love him too much

yeah finally i'm giving you up
cuz i'm tired of waiting
i'm tired of always tryin'
nd tired of hoping you'll love me

i may give you up
but you'll always be in my heart
i'll never forget about you
now i need a brand new start

emoterraaahhh.... lolz.... uhhmmm... well... diz is not even related to mah topic...juz wanna take diz chance to thank u guyz....salamat po sa mga readers koh... sa mga naging ka-feeling-close koh ditoh... sa walang sawang dumadalaw, nag-iiwan nang bakas, nagkokomento, at nakiki-haller ditoh... salamat po sa patuloy na pangtanggap saken ditoh kahit minsan eh naghihi-atus hanglola nyoh... salamat sa mga bago kong kakilala sa blogsphere... salamat sa pagdamay saken sa mga times na emotera akoh...at salamat sa pakikihalakhak sa mga korni at la kwentz kong jokes at entries... salamat sa pakikinig nang mga inlab inlaban kong posts... salamat sa pagpuri sa mga poems nang feelingerang poet...salamat sa pagdamay sa mga times na feeling heartbroken akoh na nde moh maintindihan.. salamat sa pagpatol sa mga katopakanz koh... salamat for makin' meeh smile, laugh, cry, sad, love and for makin' my day sometimes... u guyz are so awesome... i'm so glad to be part of this world, to be part of your life, and to be part of your blog.... salamat kahit nde koh man kayo kasama nor nakikita eh sobrang close kayo sa puso koh... one day awa ni God i'll meet some of u guyz...love yah all... *mwahugz* =)
 

HAVE a HAPPY THaNKSGiViNG!

*also advance MeRRY CHRiSTMaS and a BLeSSed 2011*

GODBLESS!

nde na lang kc

he keeps saying that he loves me and he miss me

but it is YOU who i LOVE and i always MISS

sad part though... i dunno who's in your heart

nor who you love and who you always miss...

ba't nde na lang kc...
"mahal kita mahal mo ko at bahala na silah"

GEEZ!

lolz... la lang... kalerki lang....

much love - emoterang DEE  GODBLESS!

freakin' COLD!

yep... that's d' word for d' day here cuz it is really freakin' COLD! ... snowin' kc outside... kaninang mornin' pah akoh super cold.. graveh... oh yeah i juz checked d' weather...ahh kaya nemen sobrang lamig eh high 30's nd low 15's ngaun... geez! nde kc nagbabasa nang weather sa fone nyah eh... talkin' to myself lang.. lolz... nd right now eh currently 28 degrees farenheit..  kaya nemen palah...below zero nah in celcius... even right now eh sobrang nilalamig hanglola nyoh... naka-HI na nga ang heater koh pero nde pa ren kayah... kalerki.. eniweiz... i'll juz show yah some pixs i've taken few minutes ago.. medyo madilim nga lang... cuz night na kc nd nde naman all that 'un camera koh... anyhoo... these are some of d pixs =)

shhh.. it's my dad's car....ginawa ko lang model nang snow...eniweiz didn't have dat much pixs.. labo ren kc dahil gabi nah... ayonz... i'm still so *freakin'* cold... nemen wala kcng ka-*hugz* eh... walah bang aapply dyan.. kahit one night lang.. lolz... anyhoo... daz all for now...laterz... salamat sa mga walang sawang bumibisita ditoh... i really appreciate it... ingatz lagi nd lab lab koh kayoh so much... Godbless! -di

sleepy meeh

la akong maisip na title eh yan na lang... sobrang antokz na akoh right now kc little past 12 na here... yep... puyat na naman lola nyoh.. tsk! actually ilang days na akong puyat... kalerki... kaya minsan parang yoko gumising sa morning eh... pero kelangan eh... itz not like i want to but i have to... lalo na't minsan eh hanglamig lamig... i juz wanna stay under my blanket... at matulog... geez! eh dapat kc natutulog nah akoh ngaun eh.. pero eh.. la lang... blog muna akoh... lolz


oh yeah how was my weekend... kalerki weekend koh kc magkaibang magkaibang mood koh nang saturday nd sunday... saturday i was totally lazy... i didn't do nothin' at all... didn't nothin' at all! grammar moh.. eh! ba't bah... ganyan magsalita mga tao d2 eh... feelingera lang akoh... walang grammar grammar ditoh kc eh... nasabi lang... parang kanina ung isang young african american "black" na girlaloo... narinig koh she was tellin' her i dunno brother nyah siguro eh ganitoh... she was like "i ain't got no money to give yah"... haha.. la lang.. un lang...

nde nagfufunction brain kohhhhh.. kalerki.. ahh un... then sunday... yeah i was so masipag.. so masipag tlgah eh noh... uhm... i cleaned mah room... oh i helped my nanay clean up d' leaves in our backyard... kc nga fall.. nagkalat mga leaves... kalerki nga lang nung nilalagay koh ung mga dahon sa trash bag eh uhm... eh... tinatamad na akoh magkuwento.. un na lang... haha... uhm...  luluha na mata koh eh...


hmmm... sige sleepy nah akoh... tinatamad na akoh magkuwento... sori nemen.... pwede bah mag-type nang nde nagkukuwento??? *hikabz* sobrang sleepy nah... next time na akoh magkuwento.. nagblog pa akoh eh noh... walang kwentz... later yah'll... *hugz* Godbless!

p.s. sabihin koh na nga...kc may na mix na uod don sa leaves.. kaya i screamed... kaartehang tili... i was like uuoooddd!!!!... but my nanay was like.. nde uod un... bulate un... eh ano bah difference nang uod at bulate??? hmm... so yeah... nite! sooper sleepy na tlgah... oh yeah sensya sa taglish na entry... kaartehan lang...lolz... laterz =)

another p.s. nevermind... i already asked google: ---> Uod = maggots. Bulate = worms... eh di fine! bulate.. lol...nite folkz!

Glimpse of Fall =)



p.s para maibah naman ang hangin ditoh sa blog koh... well yeah datz juz some of d' fall pix na nakunan koh this fall... not much cuz i lost my camera nd juz found it uhm weeks ago...pix1. nacutan lang akoh don sa yellow tree nang neighbor namen. pix2 hangganda lang kc minsan pagmasdan mga puno sa fall. pix3 pinakafave koh sa lahat yan... i so luv d' red leaves... so yeah... daz all for now.... tc yah'll... nd thanks sa walang sawang pagbisitah... *hugz*... have a nice day.... Godbless!

wala lang =P

Will you be my Forever?
by: dhianz


I know you are not mine and not sure if you'll ever be
But until now I'm longing for you to be part of me
I wanted to talk to you so bad but i'm scared you'll see
How much i love you and you might never talk to me


I wish I have a strenght to tell you how I really feel
So i'll know if you love me too or i should start to heal
Loving someone comes with pain as part of the deal
But please let me know soon so I can move on and heal


Don't know what is it 'bout you that i couldn't let you go
I tried so many times but i'm still here loving you so
You might not be aware of it but until now i still do
I still do love you, and think of you and it hurts me so


I hope you'll be my prince and be my forever my boo
Dunno if it's possible 'cause all i have is a dream of you
I tried to stop loving you but i still always miss you
I wish I could spend the rest of my forever loving you


p.s. ahh repost hangdrama... tagal na yan... 'la lang... may mah post lang... lol... have a nice day... *hugz*...
oh yeah don't wori nde emo yan... and i'm far from emo tonight... yep... wabz yah all! Godbless! -di

bday palah ni kuya drake....

HaPPY BiRTHDaY Wafu kong KUYA ...

KuYa DRaKe

may u have more birthdayz to come and more blessings from Him...

p.s. la lang trip lang kita batiin sa blog koh... *hugz*...  Godbless!

itz better if i juz....

Silently Love You
by: dhianz


I’m here all alone in my room
And all I wanna think about is you
Do you think I'm really that inlove?
Or maybe I just dream of you too much…
…that's why I'm this addicted to you


I'm happy every time you're around
But feel incomplete everytime you're gone
A simple greeting of yours makes my day
I wonder how much more if you say...
…that magic word that I longed for?


I dunno really what’s happening to me
Nor why my heart beats everytime we talk
It's a feeling that I don't really understand
Like sometimes even you hardly say anything...
...I still find myself so excited to talk to you


Love really moves in mysterious ways
Or maybe I’m just really insane
I even have this thought in my mind
If I am allowed to court somebody…
…I would definitely go for you


I think I would be one of a sweet suitor
I would bring you some chocolates and flowers
I could throw a bear with that too if you like
I might even write you a romantic love letter...
... then I would ask you will you be mine?


Maybe I'm really little crazy about you
That's why I was able to write all these thing
But what if I am not the only one?
What if you're feeling the same way too...
…and you're just hiding your real feelings?


But still I have no idea who’s in your heart
Or if I even have a chance with your love
All I know is I have this special thing for you
I guess for now that is more than enough...
...for me to silently love you


ahh napost koh na toh tagal nah... so more likely nabasa na nang iba...
iba naman nde pa so...ahh la lang... i juz wanted to post it agian =)
...ingatz u guyz... Godbless!

"in ur eyes"

‎"Nobody can choose the pain, You just learn to live with it. In time.... You Cope"

... juz finished watchin' d' movie in 'ur eyes online... well lately lah tlgah akong time manood nang movie... but since sabado here bukas eh i thought na magpuyat lang.. minsan lang naman eh... so 'un... okei naman... nde naman tlgah akoh pinaiyak nang bonggang bongga tulad nang ibang movies pero kahit papaano eh napaiyak akoh nitoh... gusto koh lang yan quote na yan na nakuha koh sa movie...


... minsan nalilimutan koh na pano maging masayah... eemo daw bah???? haha... takte naeemo ang mood koh kc kapapaiyak lang saken nang movie eh... nyaikz... tuloy nagmumukha na tuloy akong sobrang maemo sa blogging na world na toh... kalerki! i'm little different pag kasama akoh sa person... lot of 'em say na i'm fun to be w/... i'm a little funny.. i usually make 'em laugh... but ditoh feeling koh i'm exactly d' opposite... siguro cuz sometimes sa writing koh lang nailalabas kung minsan kung ano nasa loob koh... nde tlgah kc akoh ma-open na tao... kaya am not sure kung lucky kayo kc nakakapag-open akoh sa inyoh minsan... or medyo d' opposite kc lagi kayo naeemohan koh... lol


... pero papasalamat akoh sa inyoh... andyan kayoh sa mga times minsan na maemo akoh... sobrang naapreciate koh kayong lahat nang ka-blogs koh... i juz wanted to say that... don't wori nde akoh sspeech... hmmmmm.... almost 12 nah nd i think i better sleep nah....

... minsan kung pwede nga lang sabihin sa tao na mahalin moh nga akoh... eh di ginawa koh nah... minsan naman... nde moh alam u juz feel like mahal moh ung tao but dat person don't feel d' same way... minsan nag-assume kah kc... yan mahirap yan.... minsan siguro nde tamang pagkakataon... but i dunno.... well d' best answer is... u juz have to trust God more.... more like trust Him at all times... yeah... *hinganng malalim*... kalerki lang tlgah minsan ang kaemohan koh eh noh... i juz yawned... means sleepy na tlgah.... so yep... daz all my emo for d' day... lab lab koh kayong lahat... basahin nyo man to or nde... have a nice day yah'll... *mwahugz*

Godbless! -di

ah told u...

pag meron akoh messed up ang mood koh... at etoh ang kinalabasan...


i dunno by: dee


i don't really know why i like you
you're not even close to my ideal guy
it was my heart who fell inlove with you
it's weird so don't bother to ask me why


i dream so many times that you'll be the one
i even pray to God that i hope it's you
the one that i've been waitin for all my life
but now i'm having doubt it'll ever true


sometimes i'm kinda hoping you feel the same way
sometimes i just wanna stop this craziness
sometimes i'm kinda scared to talk to you
sometimes you became d reason of my loneliness


but i feel like this gotta stop
i'm already feeling bad about myself
maybe you'll never feel the same way
maybe i'll just store this feeling on the shelf


i dunno if i'm just feeling down
but writing this makes me wanna cry
i'm about to burst in tears
why everytime i have to say goodbye


can't help the tears from falling
not sure is it because finally i'm letting you go
you'll always be in my heart though
but i'll stay if you tell me so


kalerki hang kadramahan... man!... i was so down when i was writing that... but i'm feeling little better now... kc paalis na ren hangdalaw.. kalerki... have gud day yah'll... Godbless!

Grr

Naaasar ako kc namimiss kita

Man! why do i always have to miss U

So amazing kc kahit out of nowhere

Nakakagawa ako nang poem for you

You make me crazy you know that

Sobrang nalelerki ako saU

If you could just open my heart

You'll be surprise to see how much I love U

But of course you don't know that

How i wish i could just tell you

Pero hindi naman yon ganon kadali eh

Tsaka baka mabasted pa ako saU

I used not to like poem at all

Natuto lang akong magsulat dahil saU

Guess the only time i'll stop writing one

When my heart stops beating for you

p.s. oh devah hangswit.. lol.. la lang...... take care u guyz! Godbless!

Never Give Up in Life - A Truly Inspirational Video

ilang beses koh na tong napanood... but lagi akong napapaiyak... it is such an inspiring video...i won't say so much nah but if you feel like giving up juz watch this video... through him we see how amazing God is... Godbless! -di

i love so much po God =)

makadaldal lang

lab koh ung lagi akong kinukulit.... lab koh kung sinasakyan kaadikan koh.. actually madali lang akoh ma-fall pero but ganon.. i feel like na-fall akoh taong exactly opposite nang gusto koh... siguro dahil nde nya kelangan maging makulit kc makulit na akoh... nde kailangan maging hadik kc adik akoh... nde nya kelangan maging madaldal kc madaldal akoh... kailangan siguro balance...


naasar akoh minsan pag nde akoh kinkulet... btw uhm... advice lang... minsan mga girls hwag mag-assume... don't think they love u until they say they do... sarap kme minsan mag-assume... sarap mangarap... eh libre eh... sometimes i can be totally inluv nd sometimes i can be totally opposite... yes i'm weird sometimes... or maybe more like to d' extreme...


hwag kang mangulit kung ayaw kah kausapin... makaramdam ka kung ayaw kah kausapin... lol... talking to myself... hmmm...


i wanted to take a nap but i couldn't... gising na gising hangdugo koh... yeah ung dugo tlgah ang gising... lol...


minsan hangsarap lang kausapin ang sarili... why kc nde moh kelangan maghintay nang reply... tumalak ka lang nd satisfied ka nah... in a way... or sometimes... or maybe... yeah i guess... sure.... parang ganyan lang... lol


nagkukuwento na lang akoh... actually kinakausap koh na sarili koh eh lubusin koh nah... minsan lang naman toh eh... ahhh... yeah i went party party last last week w/ friends... we weren't suppose to go clubbin'.. kakain lang sana... eh napagtripan so why not... i luv to dance eniweiz nd yeah sometimes to drink but am not a drinker... i was tryin' na nde malasing ung isang friend koh na madalas mag-knock down so akoh ang parang naging bodyguard nya... i was drinking all her drinks... funny nga kc i didn't spend a dime dat night... they all paid for our drinks... who's they... basta they... so un... hangending... akoh nalasing... but... totally alert naman akoh but i almost got kick out... corny kc ung mga bouncers don... i think nung dme koh nang nainom eh nanunulak akoh nang tao.. crowded eh... actually nde akoh ung fwend koh... well... natutulak nyah kc i was pushing her... lol...

anyhoo i didn't even know wat i drink.. i know its all mix wines nd vodka.. nd i dunno... wala akong idea sa drinks.. i juz drink it... kc i'm not a drinker... its just fun sometimes to get drunk... oh funny cuz some guys were askin' me to dance but i like to dance in 3's w/ friends... don't feel like solo... baka ma-rape koh eh... lol... science ung huli daw wafu... di koh nakita face eh... but nung normal mode na akoh next day i was like eh nde naman akoh inask nun nung una eh... 'ung fwend koh.. but since she was taken eh saken pumunta... ano 'un? lol... nd funny everytime they ask me to dance i go to d' bathroom... they were like inaask kang mag-dance! takbo ka nemen nang takbo... lol... anyhoo... it was fun... i had a great time.. i juz luv to laugh when i'm drunk nd i guess linta akoh minsan...yep... lookin' forward of goin' out again next time...


i'm feeling little better now... kalerki... lol... hmmm... *nakatitig lang sa laptop*......


oh yeah i remember last time i told my niece cuz she did somethin' w/ her playdoh... is dat how u spell it? eniweiz... i was like "ano bah yan mukhang palaka!" ung gawa nyah... she was like "wat's palaka?" tawa akoh... mah bad... nalimutan koh slang pala mga kausap koh.. tsk!


nakakaaliw lang tlgah minsan mag-blog... i won't lie that i luv koments... i luv hearin' from u guyz... pero wats more awesome eh is to able to write down my thoughts in any way i want it... it doesn't have to be right grammar... it doesn't have to be in juz one language... it doesn't have be great transitions from paragraph to paragraph... it doesn't have to be like an essay... lol.. kahit jologs pa yan.. kahit conyo... juz write down watever... kinda like journal i guess... 


i luv to write down my thoughts too sometimes kc pag nde i'm super daldal... yep... kalerki lang.. i don't like it kc nde lahat nang lumalabas sa bibig koh eh maganda... ung minsang makapagsalita ka lang... yeah..


oh yeah God's been sweet to meeh lately... nakakatuwa.... it was funny cuz i lost my camera for months now... i was pretty sure it was at home pero hinalughog koh sa buong haus nde koh makita... then day before yesterday... pauwi akoh nang haus... nakita koh hangaganda nung mga leaves sa labas nang haus namen... kc fall... lalo na ung mga red leaves... i was like to God "sayang po God nde ko makunan nang pix... la akong camera" then dat very night... pagkadating koh sa haus... tuwang tuwa nanay koh... nd she was like... "nakita na namen cam moh... sa likod nang frame" i was like wat? nde nga?... i was so happy.. kakatuwa... nd hangtungeks...nung naghahanap akoh sa haus eh lahat nang frames binaliktad koh... lahat nang sulok sinilip koh...even room koh binaliktad koh... even kusina hinalughog koh... kahit bathroom pinag-tripan koh... kahit sa haus nang ate koh... pinagbintangan koh... pati mga pamangkin koh ginawa kong suspect...kahit aso namen tinanong koh...  lol... pero funny kc there was juz one part of da haus na nde koh chinek... nd it was there... kalerki...


man... end koh nah toh kc essay nah eh kc need to get ready nah cuz i gotta be somewhere tonight... yep nagbebenta akoh nang aliw sa gabi.. lolz... juz kidding of course...

anyhoo... kung may nagbasa man... tibay moh... lol... man more likely i'll be up for 24 hours... i dont' usually do that now eh kc i'm tryin' to stick on my sleep pattern... oh devah... lol... sige... thanks folks... nde akoh nagsasawang makipag-blog sa inyoh... sometimes so lazy nd tired lang tlagah magbasa... *churi*... next time aadik akoh... la lang so much time kc eh... wabz koh kayoh... lab lab... Godbless!

pangarap ko

simple lang naman ang pangarap koh....

...yun eh maging pangarap moh

lol... Godbless u guyz =)

kinda funny =)

Titlog and Nanin:


kakatuwa mga pamangkin koh... my niece umm lets call her ann-ann
she say itlog as titlog and my nephew say kanin as nanin... nd ann say gusto as in tuto...
so it sounds like this... "Tuto ko nang nanin at titlog" haha... lolz... kaaliw lang =)

Gusto ko:


mah other niece koh lets name her le-lei... older than Ann...
(yup those are not real names) *niece ann-anne was talking to meeh*


Anne: auntie tuto koh... rice...
ME: tuto moh? hahah... tuto moh rice.. tuto moh... *i was trying to copy her*
*natatawa si LEI kc buyoy si ann so she was like*
Lei: ann! nde tuto moh... you have to say Usto moh....
ME: *laughin so hard* *


oh devah.. kinorek nang isa pang buyoy! lolz

Palo:


Ann-Ann: auntie! Le-lei away me... you palo her
*oh devah sosyal mag-salitah... lol*


Usok:


nephew wil: mommy TOK... *while pointing at the "usok*
niece anne: wil! mali! hindi TOK yon UTOK!
*oh devah... hanggaling magkorek... lol... wehe.. =)*

Dine:

youngest niece Jill... instead of calling me auntie diane...
she calles me DINE! hangcute devah =)

 okei at work w/ mga adik na customers nemen


You are Fine

ME: how are you?
Guy: i'll be fine if i have you
ME: sure
*i actually wanted to tell him "cool that rhymes!* lol


other version... ibang customer naman...

ME: how are you?
GUY: i'm FINE like you
*weh?* lol


haha... pero hwag kayo maniniwala cuz mga hadik lang yan...yep  =P

Mind Reader:


nakakatuwa ung dalawang matanda kong customer sina lolo at lola
*they were kinda arguing...
Lolo: *then lolo was like*...am i supposed to be a mind reader?
Lola: YES!

 haha... la lang... nakakatuwa si lola kc hangtaray nd she was straight to d' point..
nd yep GUYS u all suppose to be a mind reader
...kung gusto nyong tumagal  sa relationship nyo! haha...LOL *just kiddin'*


daz all for now folkz.. nite na akoh...nd alam koh paulit ulit na lang ako BUT thank sa mga dumadalaw here... nd sori medyo can't return d' favor for now... kc po medyo tired po akoh lately para gumala... BUT wabz koh kayoh nd appreciate all of u... ingatz...have a super day and Godbless! -di

yoko na =(

tapos na akong mag-celebrate nang 2 years koh sa blog... eemo naman akoh... =( i juz suddenly feel sad... yang suddenly feel sad na yan eh emo koh pa yan kahapon... then i felt better then i feel d' same way again... actually juz now... i hate d' feeling... wala namang karapatan makaramdam nitoh... oh man! i don't like feeling this way... like i'm 'bout to burst in tears... really... awww =(.... *teary eyes* la lang... i wish i could juz tell u guyz but rather not... *sigh* matutulog na nga lang akoh eemo pa akoh... kalerki... but eniweiz... sori... tapos na kc mag-celebrate nang 2 years eh... time to emo i guess... hmmm... juz wanna say thanks sa mga bumati at babati pa sa pag-turned 2 nang blog koh... if u wanna make me feel better eh go ahead... nde koh kayo pipigilan.... hmmmm...  *huminga nang malalim* but i know things always don't go my way... i guess siguro itz more bout trusting God.... "God i trust u po but i just suddenly feel so down and u know why" kalerki... yep makaemo lang... but i'll be aight...akoh pah... wala akong karapatan mag-emo kc... kc yon... yon na un.... take care folks... but i still feel sad =( ... but nite nite though... i gotta sleep nah... thanks for listenin' kahit few second so emo lang.. i appreciate it nd Godbless! -di

2 years na palah tayo

Akalain mong aabot tayo nang ganitong katagal no
Bilis tlgah lumipas nang panahon oo
Nakakatawa kc ilang beses kitang binalak ilet-go
Ilang beses ko reng tri-ny tapusin ang tayo

Pero anditoh pa ren ako at nde nawalay sa'yo
Nde magawang magpakalayo sa piling mo
Nabihag mo ang tumtibok na puso ko
At di lang yon cuz naging adik den ako sa'yo

Napapasaya mo ang araw koh
Nagiging comfort kita sa kalungkutan koh
Nakikinig kah sa mga kaemohan ko
Pati gabi ko nakukumpleto mo

Pero kung sakalin man na magkahiwalay tayo
Gusto kong malaman moh
Nde ka mawawaglit sa isip at puso ko
Dahil nakaukit ka na ditoh

Nagpapasalamat akoh na dumating ka sa life ko
Naging makulay itoh nang dahil sa'yo
Mahal kitah at nde koh ikakaila itoh
Happy 2nd year sa aten blog koh =)


p.s. kala nyo kung ano nah noh... or kala koh lang? lol...
supposedly 31st pa yan kc un ung 2nd year nang blog koh...
anyhoo.... yey! 2 yrs. na meeh kahit kadalasan eh nawawala....
salamat sa lahat nang ka-blogs koh... wabz koh kayoh...
ingatz nd Godbless! -di