1/02/2009

not in the mood...

...i started my new year right naman... everythin' went fine... i was able to spent it w/ my family and luv ones... but today... i dunno.... nde maganda gising koh... kaninang umaga pah.... from d' mornin' i woke up... walah na akoh sa mood.... kanina... i woke up kinda late... cuz i slept late na ren cuz of d' new year celebration... kaninang umaga sabi koh ba't 'la akoh sa mood?... ang choices lang don... a. kulang akoh sa tulog b. gutom akoh c. magkakaroon akoh... well like i said... i slept late so yeah kulang akoh sa tulog... and yeah i was hungry too cuz earlier i didn't eat anythin' when i left home cuz i woke up late nah and i had to hurry so i won't be late to work... but magkakaroon? dat i dunno yet... but yeah kung magkakaroon akoh tlagang mainit uloh koh.... when i got to work.. i asked my co-worker to make meeh coffee to start my day... i paid for it already n everythin'... tapos nung kukunin koh nah eh she haven't make it cuz bz daw syah... eh kc naman inuna pa nyah 'ung customer eh nauna akoh kaya don... hay! ayon... nag-init uloh koh eh mag-sstart na 'ung shift koh... so yeah dat moment... gutom akoh... and i also needed coffee so bad.. i had a muffin but dat wasn't enough... cuz i had no coffee... i wasn't able to drink coffee until two hours after i started my shift... syempre sa harap nang customers i gotta smile and pretend i was fine... but i wasn't fine... even 'ung mga co-workers koh natatarayan koh nah... i wasn't even smilin' a lot like my usual.. not so friendly as well.... pero kinda bz kanina so i guess dehinz nilah ganoh pansin... naiinis akoh sa mood koh.... actually my mood today were all mixed: i was feelin' grumpy, mean, unfriendly, upset, depressed, down, sad.... ewan koh... around afternoon that was when i became depressed... i was feelin' down, and feelin' upset for no reason... durin' my lunch... i dunno i juz felt sad... i ate a sandwich...after dat i was feelin' d' same thing... feelin' so low.. i wanted to read d' book dat i brought to work... but didn't feel like readin' it... oh yeah i didn't have my cellphone w/ meeh too cuz i left it at home'... then i wanted to write somethin'... pero i didn't have a pen w/ meeh dat moment in d' breakroom... i was lazy to get up and get a pen... so ayon... nagpa-ka-upset lalo... then back to work... we were really bz... ayon... mejo naputol ang pagiging emo koh... pansamantalang nalimutan koh ang sarili koh cuz there was so much things to do... and yeah cuz we were bz... then uwian time.... i was on d' way home... i was feelin' sad... and depressed... and down.... na ewan.... when i got home... dahil nde koh maintindihan ang nararamdaman koh... kumain akoh... i guess i was hungry too... but still my mood was still on d' down low... feeling koh maiiyak akoh nah nde koh maintindihan... then i went to my room.. my ate was there and using the laptop... tapos nakita koh pa mejo magulo ang room koh cuz ginulo na naman nang pamangkin koh... nag-init na naman ulo koh... she was talkin' to meeh but i don't feel like answerin' back... i either ignored some of her questions or i juz answered it w/ a one word phrase... dat wasn't a usual meeh.... ewan koh bah... then my niece came up to meeh and also was askin' meeh a question.. i juz ignored her... tapos... nilakasan nyah boses nyah... sabi koh nabibingi akoh... then after that she was like...oh ok you dunno.... since walah akong sinasabi syah na sumagot nang tanong nyah.. then i went to watched dvd w/ her... but still wasn't in the mood... but it was sweet of her tumabi sya saken at binigyan akoh nang blanket nyah.. but i was only there for few minutes... bumalik akoh ditoh sa room koh at nag-changed...tapos humiga sa bed at nag-emote at nag-pretend to be sleepin'... then my ate asked me kung matutulog na akoh... nde akoh sumagot... maya maya... she left nah and went to her room w/ my other niece... finally nagamit koh ang computer... i have my dim light... my music is on... nasa bed at nakakumot... i guess still not in d' mood... i guess kelangan koh lang itulog... i hate diz feeling'... but... kahit 'la akoh sa mood... mag-pray bago matulog... so yeah...i'll get ready to sleep nah... GODBLESS! -di

14 comments:

  1. dumaan.... babasahin ko sa monday na.... hehehe

    ingat!!!

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  2. Hey Dhianz! 'Wag na init ulo ngiti na diyan. Uyyy ngingiti na 'yan. Yiheee! Ayan na o! Pangiti na o! Yiheee! Ngingiti na! Ngingiti na! Ayaaannn ngumiti na si Dhianz. Yesss! Hahaha! *LOLz*

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  3. Basahin ko mamaya dee!!!

    happy new year.. hindi ko pa alam kung bakit ka wala sa mood.. pero i hope ok ka na!

    love u sis

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  4. ***Inhale
    ***Exhale

    Napakahirap naman intindihin ng feeling na yan Ms D na kahit ikaw hindi mo rin naiintindihan kung bakit ka ganyan.

    Just relax.
    And smile.
    And smile.
    And smile.

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  5. Dee!....hop ok ka na nw....

    miss u dee...

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  6. uy! salamat sa inyoh.... i juz woke up.... yeah i'm gonna try to start my day right today... w/ God's help...

    and abah! ang mga guwapong lalake nang blogsphere ang mga unang commentor koh ditohh ahh... naks naman oo!... then dat should start my day right devah?... lolz

    to marcopaolo: uy marco! ur back?... oh yeah balik work kah nah by monday... naks naman... na-miss na nilah sobrah... oh sige homework moh yan... sa monday ha... lolz... pero uy... na-miss kitah parekoy... ingatz... =)

    the gasoline dude: abah! si dude... alam koh bihirah kah maligaw ditoh sa lungga koh... pero hey... i appreciate u tryin' to make meeh smile... yeah napa-smile naman kahit slight sa hirit moh... wehe...ingatz dude! =)

    to ronturon: sige homework moh ren yang pagbabasa... lolz... sige happy new year uletz... alam koh nabati na kitah nang ilang beses... wehe... 'la sa mood?... ewan... nde koh maintindihan sarili koh kahapon... basta... mixed emotions tlgah akoh... but yeah thanks... i'm ok today... juz gotta start my mornin' right... ingatz kuya ronz... should i say luv yah too kuya ronz?.. wehe...ingatz... =)

    to bong: inhale... exhale... inhale... exhale... oo nga noh... i guess dat was wat i forgot yesterday.... to breathe.... hayz.... pero true... nakakatulong nga yang paghinga kapag ur feelin' down or stressed... sige i'll try to relax today and smile... salamat sa advice... i appreciate it bong... ingatz... =)

    to pajay: miss u too kuya EJ!.. sendali kala koh bah babasahin moh pa 'ung new year post koh? anong nangyari?... wehe.. lolz... eniweiz... i guess i'm better today... i juz woke up... so yeah i'm gona try to start my day right w/ God's help... salamat sa concern... ingatz... =)

    GODBLESS! -di

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  7. hi mare!!cheer up!!!the world needs your smile!!thats ok!!chill out and stay cool!!

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  8. salamat mareng amor! =) *smile* ayan... naka-smile nah... wehe... ewan koh bah kahapon tlgah dehinz koh tlgah maintindihan ang nararamdaman koh... as in mixed emotions akoh... i think magkakaroon nga akoh... wehe... ewan bah ba't ganon akoh everytime padating na yang dalawa na yan... tsk! kakalocah... kayah mababaliw kah tlgah sa mga babae eh... tayo 'un mare... wehe... ingatz! =)

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  9. hahaha.. tama si BOng
    lols
    hinga ka lang ng malalim tapos wag kang titigil sa paghinga.. hinga lang ng hinga!
    hahaha.. kase kung di ka huminga, baka matepok ka..lols

    ganyan talaga ang buhay may kanikanyang tumbong at sumpong.. o di nman kaya fulmoon kaya ganun..lols
    di ko na nga alam kung kelan ang fuloon eh..
    sige ingat sa pagtulog..
    kilala mo ba si rico yan? nadali yun sa pagtulog kaya ingat ka sa madaming tulog..lols

    pasensya na sa milya milya kong epal...
    nawiwili na.. hehe

    peaceout!!

    have a blessed sunday

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  10. ganyan neighbor... humirit kah... at nang masayahan akoh... wehe...nd yeah cuz later i'll give u an exam... wehe... at present kah dapat lagi kc present akoh lagi sau... wehe... hayz! ewan koh kahapon tlang nde koh maintindihan sarili koh... sobrah... as in... but i'm feelin' better now... kahapon feelin' koh gumuguho mundo koh na ewan... yeah breathe... i think dat was wat i forgot to do yesterday...wehe.. kaw ren ingatz sa pagtulog kaw devah ang madalas sa bangungot... pray before u sleep...oytey...cge..ingatz parekoy! don't wori pabalik na si tea-break partner moh... =)

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  11. feelin' koh puro wehe ang comment koh sau neighbor... hehe... napansin koh lang... =)

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  12. hi dhianz... hope your ok now! ako ok na ako! now i have to deal my new year's resolution! waaa! sabi nga ni kuya pajay wag na daw di ko rin magagawa! hehehe..bakit kaya pagpasok ng 2009 dame emo mode! hehehe.. take care always.. mwaaaahuuuugssss!!!!

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  13. to dangel: at least okei na tayoh pareho sis dangel... i'm way better today...new years resolution... hayz... 'la ata akoh nyan ngaun...kc dehinz koh naman nagagawa... usually hanggang umpisa lang.. and good for a month... tapos back to normal... so i'm juz gonna do my best kung ano man ang goal koh at gusto kng i-accomplish... syempre w/ God's help syempre... so juz do ur best... and don't be too hard on urself.. walah naman imposible eh... i guess sometimes discipline at focus lang... and prayers... 'un... ok lang yang e-mode... at least next time tawa at saya naman...ingatz den... *hugz* =)

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  14. syempre w/ God's help syempre.... nasobrahan akoh sa syempre... hehe... antokz nah siguro... =)

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